An Open Letter

I write this to you now because I know that you will read this. Behind every single emotion and every drive comes an excitement, and I want to share with you this excitement. I want to tell you so many things! For example, today I saw a movie that was really, really cheesy, and it was supposed to be scary... yet, I feel like I should look behind me every five seconds. Weird, huh? I wonder, do you love these cheesy movies?

Looking out my window, I can see every single star that is visible to the naked eye, and I cannot help but wonder from where you are looking at them, or even if you are looking at them. By the calendar, we're approaching a time in which I'll share with you, laugh with you, smile with you and love... yet, I’m being held back. I wish I could say that I am waiting for you, but I can’t. I’ve prayed to God that everything will be done according to His will, and I know it’s all going along as He plans. That is why I say I don’t wait for you. I long to smile your smile and to cry your tears, but we both know we're not ready. I am being prepared, aren’t you proud of me? I am proud of what is being done with us! See, we are blindfolded, yet we are willing to go out and run a race! And I want you to know that I’m running as best as I can! You know what? I’m constantly being tempted, but I won’t give in! It’s too easy to quit now! I know I’m running this race ‘til the end, and I know that you are too! So why quit now? I won’t give it away because that moment has already been set aside for me with you. I know that they'll try to end my dream, but I know that my dream lives within me. Speaking of dreams, did you know that I’ve dreamt about you? Yes, I have! No, I still can’t see you, but you know what? I feel you, and I sense you. I’ve seen you sitting on my bed looking back at me. I’ve seen you courageously take a step of faith as tears come to my eyes. I am behind you ‘til the end. I know that a light shines down into me and you. I’ve seen these things. I want to tell you these things! With songs that pass by, I get chills and I embrace the excitement that lunges me in this forward motion! I’m close, and so are you! Do I know you yet? I don’t know. Do you know me? I don’t know, but what I do know is that our time is not right. But you know what? I’m not worried! I’m excited and happy beyond my words allow me to say! My stage of polishing is just so that the polisher can see His reflection! And as I cross individual stages, I know I come closer to you. So, my dear, I just want you to know that I know. I don’t wait because we've already been chosen. Nevertheless, I need to prepare myself. No matter what they say, no matter what may distract me, no matter who may discourage me...

Cellphone Reminders

Be careful how you list names on your cell phone!

A lady friend has changed her habit of how she lists her names on her mobile phone after her handbag was stolen. Her handbag which contained her mobile, Credit card, purse...etc. ... was stolen. Twenty minutes later when she called her Hubby from a pay phone telling him what had happened, hubby says, "I've just received your text asking about our pin number and I've replied a little while ago. "When they rushed down to the bank, the bank staff told them all the money was already withdrawn. The pickpocket had actually used the stolen hand phone to text "hubby" in the contact list and got hold of the pin number. Within 20 minutes he had withdrawn all the money from the bank account.

Lessons:
1. Do not disclose the relationship between you and the people in your contact list. Avoid using names like Home, Honey, Hubby, sweetheart, Dad, Mum etc.......
2. And very importantly, when sensitive info is being asked through texts/SMS, CONFIRM by calling back.
3. Also, when you're being texted by friends or family to meet them somewhere, be sure to call back to confirm that the message came from them. If you don't reach them, be very careful about going places to meet "family and friends" who texted you.

Warning lang po galing kay Julie, officemate ko.

I'M NOT A PLAYA, I JUST CRUSH A LOT.

Why is it however happy you are sometimes, you still have those moments where you really miss someone. Even if you've seen them that day, them not being there at that moment is enough to make you cry.

Need snuggles. Tiredness is not good for me. I need to sleep.

Wow.

Surreal: Finding a bowling ball in your yard.

Double Surreal: Realizing said bowling ball fits your hand more perfectly than any other ball you have picked up.

Ang Hirap Maging Dancer...

Kanina after work, ininvite ako ni Kurin sa Music 21 sa Makati Avenue. Kasama rin pala si Wina, Jo at Windsor. Ok palan dun, own room tapos may food na, then sing all you can. So syempre, nagconcert ako, haha, naka-ilang kanta rin ako nun at halos mawala na boses ko (well, kantahin ba naman ang Ghost of You ng Chemical Romance).

Pero ang highlight ng gabi ay ang concert ni Wina na nagiging Britney/Paris pala kapag may hawak na mic at dim light. hehe. Syempre kailangan ng back-up dancer at boytoy sa performance, parang MTV, ganun hahaha, at sino pa ba yun kundi *ahem* yours truly. hahaha. Grabe super sayaw ako, nakakadala naman kc yung mga songs eh, lalo na yung Goodies ni Ciara. Wild kung wild, tame kung tame. Lahat yata ng alam kong dance moves ginawa ko na. Kakapagod. Kulang na lang sumirko ako dun at maghubad, well, jacket lang hinubad ko for props hahaha. Ang saya talaga, enjoy na enjoy. Hindi ako lasing nyan ha.

Tapos pag uwi hinatid pa ako ng taxi, wala talagang effort hehe. Sa may house na namin ako bumaba. *kapal*

Lahat yan libre ni Windsor. Seven pesos lang nagastos, pamasahe ko papunta dun. Nilibre rin kami nyan dati sa Rush Hour 2. Mayaman cguro yun.

Thanks talaga! Enjoy ako to the max. Sa uulitin....... *wink*

Feel.

I have faith.

I believe in this moment, I believe in lessons learned, I believe in an achievable future... I believe in Him. I carry my faith beyond the norm. I trust. I confide. I don't look back. I don't regret.

If I should fall on my face this time, I will gather strength and keep on a forward movement.

But, I trust and I have faith... I do this because I feel.

The vulnerability of those moments that can make legendary men out of boys

I don't have to say this for anyone to really ponder about it, but LIFE is just so amazing by the way things happen, right? I mean, sheesh. one minute you’re thinking one thing and the next-POW! You've got something else coming to you. Needless to say, the recent turnaround of events in my life have more than made me think about which road I'm heading down. Things happen so unexpectedly and I've noticed that the more immune you become to the amazing phenomenon that is LIFE, the more likely you are to become comforted in your set ways. Then, when life happens to you and you're caught off guard, you either run with it or you run away. Well, I think that for the first time in my life I am not going to run away. The problems I have gotten myself into up to now, I alone have gotten myself into them. The great memories and joys that I’ve experienced up to now, I alone have been the one to access those moments.

So what do I run from, you ask? The vulnerability of those moments that can make legendary men out of boys.

I woke up one day immensely troubled by my self inflicted restraints that I decided to let go of it all and just follow my heart and those dreams I once had as a kid. After trying so hard to make my life for the past few years, I've finally decided to let LIFE make me the only way I can be made.

It goes back to my theory of the little boy and his first time at the beach. He is so amazed and intrigued by the whole of it and so he goes to grab a handful of sand to keep. But, he notices that the stronger his grip is on the sand in his hand, the faster it starts slipping through his fingers. He doesn't understand it, so he keeps trying to grab more and more handfuls with stronger grips and each time, same effect. He finally realizes that the beauty of it is that letting the sand sit still in your hands can go a lot further than trying to keep it to yourself. Think about it.

S.W.I.L.F.

I just learned a new word to add to my dying recuperating vocabulary:

S.W.I.L.F = Strange women I’d like to fuck


Think Condoleezza Rice in bed. I know she’s not really that strange but you get the picture. Or maybe Miriam Defensor Santiago. I wonder if that bitter ball of hate will turn into a self-licking pussycat if you give her enough oysters to eat (oyster is a good source of aphrodisiac). Or someone really strange but bangable like Angelina Jolie or Rose McGowan. And hey, Anne Robinson can figure out the weakest link in all your sexual fantasies!

And then I have my S.M.I.L.F, which would be a noticeably longer list. They're just so... enticing, in a smelling your armpits kind of way.


I better stop thinking about stuff like this before I get a boner! haha.

No, I'm not wildly disordered. I just happen to be a member of the male species. :P

GT Peeps: Ang Alamat Ni Vibura

Syempre I made commotion na naman sa office kasi I don’t know who Vibura is. Here’s the unedited transcript ng mga messages. Mga fans ng Darna, mag-eenjoy kayo!

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Troy: U so got it pare...u know kasi nga the pasosyal comment of this guy dito sa blog pare you know, mga bobo daw ang mga tao sa col center, you know, esp. dito daw sa PS...at inapi pa lahat and inidentify lahat kung pano malalaman if u're working in a col center u know, pare...so jologs daw...e you know, baka may natamaang nerve u know, pare like shit, as in TAE...fuck that!!!

Wina: Troy, db ikaw ung gumawa ng blog? hehehe..

Troy: hahahahhaahahahhaha.....di no....potek....ang arte nga nun eh...pasasabugin daw nya ang malate sa Nov.1...so hintayin natin...nyeta...

Wina: hahhaha.. THE! pasabugin ko ilong nya.. the nerd.. waahhaha

Troy: may nakilala kong ganun dati...galit na galit sya sa mga taong nagtatrabaho sa col ctr...

Chris: hay nako..........gusto nyo maggawa ako ng group blog para satin? hahahaha!

Corinne: ay magandang ideya yan. gawa ka christian and we can lambast, to our heart's content, PS and the ugly people that work in it (di tayo kasama dun, magaganda tayo e)

Troy: AGREE AKO DYAN!!! TAYO LANG NMAN NAGPAPAGANDA DITO EH!!!

Jiz: sino ang kakambal ni shrek?

Corinne: hulaan niyo, look around. sino ba dito ang kamukha ni shrek? haha. di na kelangan ng ibang clue

Troy:sino yun si Princess Fiona??? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! E Si VIVORA??? KIlala mo

Wina: oo no kila2 ko un.. db un ung ahas ni valentina sa Darna.. ung ke nanette medved...

Troy: oo sya nga!!! nasan b si Darna ng matiris yung ahas na yun? pakalat-kalat e!!! HAHHAHAHAH

Corinne: ahaha. si vivora. naku, bubulwak na ang mga halimaw galing sa banga

Wina: d ko mali2mutan ung nguso ni vivora.. sobrang kissable... hehhee

Corinne: so alam na naming lahat kung sino ang first kiss mo. hahaha

Wina: hehehe.. c xtian d mkrelate kung cno c vivora.. wahhaha

Corinne: haha. natawa ako dito. how can you not know vivora. napakanimated pa naman ng nilalang na yun. kaaliw. wahahaha.

Chris: sino sya?huhuhuhu.Pakidrawing nga troy!!!!

Troy: christian, kanina ko pa hinahanap si vivora e, wlang pic...basta hahanapin ko...email ko agad kapag nakita ko na

Wina: wla ngang pic.. hinanap ko rin knina e.. hehehe.. effort tlga.. hehehe

Troy: e kasi naman....nakaktawa sya...di nya kilala so di nya mapicture si vivora db??? pati si Jiz...ano ba? di tuloy nila malaman kung sino ang vivora d2!!!LOL

Corinne: nakakatawa magsalita yun tapos napisat ata siya nung naglaban laban na. haha

Jiz: hahaha, siya nga yun.wahahaha

Corinne: natatawa ako kasi yung kaklase ko nung high school na makapal ang bunganga, tinutukso na BIBURAK!!!!!!!!!!

Jiz: siya yung nakalunok ng bato ni darna once diba, at naging darna siya.hahaha

Chris: ay shet parang I remember na that scene! yeah, sha yung naging darna na snake!! voiced yata sya ni ruby rodriguez?????

Jiz: siya nga yun xtian. :)

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Ayan, nadagdagan na naman ang jologs knowledge ko hehe.

So based dyan sa mga mababait na batang yan:

Vibura: sometimes referred to as Vivora. Isa syang ahas na sidekick ni Valentina sa Darna, yung si Nanette Medved ang bida. Siya yung viper snake na makapal at kissable red lips. Voiced sya ni Ruby Rodriguez. Minsan nakain nya ang bato ni Darna at naging Darna din sya, sosyal!!!! Pero nung naglaban-laban na sila, napisak sya. So sad. R.I.P. Vibura.

Peace!!!

PS: Kung sino makakapagprovide ng picture ni Vibura, may prize!!!

Kaya Huwag Papalibre sa Date!

Naniningil kasi ng bill sa dinner after malaman na wala nang second date. So lesson ito, wag na lang tayo papalibre kahit feeling generous sya. At magsend ng e-mail sa kanya:

Dear xxxxxx,

I just received your e-mails and also your message from last night. I was away and am just getting back this morning. I had every intention of calling you and meeting to go out, but your email has completely turned me off and I find it extremely tacky. I will not be sending you any money since I offered that night to pay and you told me no, that you would take care of it. Please do not call me or send me another e-mail, I would rather not hear from you at all. And for future reference in the dating world, you may want to rethink the tacky approach about asking someone for money like that, perhaps that is why you haven't met anyone or have seen them again.

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At pag nangulit pa rin. Magsend ng mas mahabang e-mail:

Dear xxxxxx,

I am truly sorry it didn't work out. You seemed like a nice person, but after your voice mails, you have now entered the world of a first-class creep. Dating is not business. I offered to go dutch at the time the bill came and you declined, as far as I am concerned, that is the end of the story. I didn't know that your paying the bill was contingent on me going out with you again.

Once again, I think you need to look internally as to why things are not working out for you in the dating world. You had mentioned that you had been burned several times, and I am sorry if you feel that it has happened to you again, but perhaps it is your approach in dealing with others that leads to this. Dating and relationships and business are completely different and there is not a quid pro quo for eating and drinking on a date. If this is how you think it works, perhaps you should consult a professional, who I could take care of all of your needs. If I remember correctly, it was your choice to go out for dinner. I would have been just as happy to take a walk in the park to get to know you.

With that said, please feel free to call my employer or issue a summons if you think that this will help. Your message has said that you will not drop this, and I am not one to be bullied or threatened. I have saved all your messages, and if you choose to go ahead with your threats, then I will be more than happy to notify the proper authorities and get a restraining order. I will also let your clients and employees know about your erratic and bizarre behavior.

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Nakakaasar talaga. Kaya nga lumabas para malibre eh! Wahehehe. Joke lang.