You know, there is a reason that I am single. It's because I have no patience. And I am the most mellow guy you'll ever meet, and I just can't stand being around people who are all about the drama. I'm a big-ass goofball, and I get along better with people who are goofballs but who know how to be "serious" when need be.
Hey, I'm single. Leave me be.
Yes, I get lonely. Yes, I wish I had someone by my side. Yes, there are many movies I would like to go out and see with someone. But NO, I'm not going to compromise myself and who I am just to have that. I have gazillion things that I think I should worry about first. At first, it used to bother me that people would automatically assume that I'm a dick or that I'm a conceited jerk, because I personally don't think so. But I've come to the conclusion that humans will be humans and will always pre-judge everyone, and frankly, if it keeps me away from those "overly-dramatic" people, then YES, I hope they DO think I'm a dick.
If I walk around like I don't care about who looks at me or really don’t care to smile at every single person, it's because I don't. Trust me. When I feel like being social, you will know. Most times, I just keep to myself. I am a very quiet person unless you are really close with me, then you'll know what a big goofball I am. I've said it before, I would love to have that special someone now, but I'm not going to force anything to happen. And I can wait. I don't want drama. I don't want to have to be calling people. I just want to be me. Screw the mainstream. Screw what people think. Screw what people want. I'm tired of this society we live in. Society does not make you who you are. If you need society to tell you that you are "all that and a bag of chips", you are a sad soul. If you need a television to tell you what you can wear... if you need a radio to tell you what music is "in"... GAAAAAAAAG. This country is so full of commercialism and advertisement. Anything and everything that at one point means something to a normal human being gets exploited. Even relationships. THEY ARE OVERRATED.
Why do you have to walk around holding someone's hand in school? So that people can think you are cool ‘cause you have a BF or GF? SCREW THAT. And if your picture doesn't make it more than 5 times in the yearbook... is that because you are NOT popular? SCREW THAT. Why try to be what OTHER people want you to be? WHY? What is the point?
If you are a sick, deranged individual, don't you think it's better for you to be who you are most comfortable being and screw trying to be "normal" like the real sick, deranged individuals that construct this society? I'm sorry but, FUCK YOU. I won't wear what you think is cool, I won't listen to the music YOU think is cool, I will not watch MTV and have them tell me what is "fashionably loud" as if I give a rat's ass.
So, you have to be a tall skinny ass chick with long legs and no boobs to be hot in this country, eh? Shoot. Where I come from, men like women any way they come. Because in the end, it's the attitude you have to deal with. Not their long legs. Sorry, I have a lot of angst in me right now. I do. Because I think it is sad. This country. This world. Why is everyone so judgmental of each other? Why can't I wear pink? WHY? Is there some unwritten rule out there that says men cannot wear pink? WTF? And why is it ok for women to be cops but if a guy is a nurse, they laugh at him and even make a damn movie to exploit the lack of male participation in a female dominated career field? I don't get it. Screw this world.
I live on this Earth because God has given me life. And although I walk around trying to demonstrate my beliefs, I will give you a big "FUCK YOU" if you're going to sit here and tell me what is "cool". And while I'm on the subject... what the hell is COOL anyways? Isn't "cool" what WE think "cool" is? Kinda like what Romeo said about a rose... "a rose by any other name would still smell as sweet" right? Soooooo... if we say something is cool, every one else can call it SHIT, but hey, we think it's cool right? See? That's my point.
GAH. Screw it. Sorry. I'm way too tired of this crap. And if you're still here reading this, it's probably because you know exactly what I mean, huh?
Yeah. So that is why I'm single. I'm tired of it. Can't someone be interested in me because I have an extraordinary boxer shorts collection? You know, that’s why I'm single. So, yeah. Fuck the norm.
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